Leslie Kendall Dye | Longreads | May 2018 | 22 minutes (6,055 words)
It is a truth not nearly enough disseminated — despite all the discussion about depression and the recourses for those who suffer from it — that electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) can work. I had it six times in the basement of Lenox Hill Hospital in New York City in 2003 when I was 27 years old.
I'd awakened the morning before my first treatment in my mother's apartment on the East Side of Manhattan. I remember staring into the mirror, mute. My mother said: "You look haunted." What was my mother seeing? I remember seeing "it" too. My face was cradled in my hands, as though they held up its sagging contents. I looked captive, as though I were staring from behind prison bars.
For the previous six months, I had been unresponsive to a host of psychotropic drugs called in as a breakwater against a tidal wave of morbid depression. Who had I been? The details: I was a college graduate who had been a child actor. I was a chatty and expressive person, prone to melancholy moods but capable of romantic enthusiasm for life. I had been, simply, a human being, before illness descended and set off deterioration. Now, I was a clump of raw nerve endings.
It's an old story. Much like prostitution is the world's oldest profession, depression, I often think, is the world's oldest ailment. But old or not, it is my story too.
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